“A dream is wish your heart makes… when you’re fast asleep… in dreams you will lose your heartaches… whatever you wish for you keep…”

-A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes

(Cinderella OST)

The days pass by so lonely… so silent…

The slower the days pass, the more I get used to the feelings… so good, so painful, so nice, so blue…

All at once…

I smile whenever I remember how real you seem to be those nights. I smile I remember that very short span of time with you.

Like a very beautiful dream…

Roses and Diamonds…

But once again, I feel the pain that almost killed me… shattered me to pieces and left me undone for good.

I feel blue whenever I remember finding out that it was just nothing but a dream…

Just a dream… Yes… You were nothing but a dream…

I feel all the blocks of bricks thrown upon me.

And yes, I do admit…

THE TRUTH NOT ONLY HURTS… BUT SOMETIMES IT KILLS…

Deep down I feel dead. I take every little pain that I could bear so as not to show to everybody how I really feel. All of a sudden I realized, dreams aren’t really for real.

So what’s the sitch? The real sitch?

Dreams are good…

Like roses so red…

Touch it’s bud and petals and you’ll find heaven…

Smell its scent and you’ll be hypnotized…

But touch its stem underneath and you’ll bleed like hell…

Its like pajamas… only suited and made for the night… not daylight…

And when you wake up you’ll realize it never really happened… like a bubble disappearing into the thin air.

What I dreaded so much is that reality is something you should live with everyday…

Whether you like it or not…

It does not care if you get hurt or whatever…

That’s life…

That’s what life is all about.

Life is reality, never a dream…

I guess…

I’ll just have to leave everything with my pillows and blankets and forget everything about you and me.

Coz’ there never really was a “you and me”

Coz’ it never really happened

I just thought it did…